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this book was amazing. it opened up huge worlds in my imagination.
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but this book was an incredible. it was doctor who and the demons in case you want to know.
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and i think i read two or three before i actually got to see the show.
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and by that time, my head was full of all these worlds.
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it was the final episode in doctor who and the day the daleks... remember that one?
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no? wrong crowd?
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do you want more of the plot? i'll leave it there, okay. it's this...
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this was so much better at comic-con, i'll tell you.
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so i remember that there were daleks and there were these creatures called ogrons, strange neanderthal-type creatures,
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driving across some lawn. it was all quite cheap.
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but to my seven-year-old mind, it was just incredible.
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but i knew i liked it, a bit like sex when you start doing that.
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so i became a huge fan.
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this program filled my life in my early years and i collected more and more books.
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i made sure i saw the show every saturday when it was on. i had some friends who were similarly devoted to the program. and this is an era, again...
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there's some more youthful faces here... when there were no videos.
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never mind dvds. there weren't videos that you could go and get. they were just the books.
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these books were quite precious. me and a few friends, we used to gather together.
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we had all the books and we used to bring them all to someone's house and then just lay them out on the floor.
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i don't know why. there was nothing else we could do. that was it.
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that was the extent of what we could actually do with doctor who at that time.
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that's not tragic, that's fine. that's just lovely. we were kids.
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there was an exhibition, a big tour. and we went on a big trip, a day trip and saw some costumes.
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as i got into my teenage years, life changed a bit. like any teenager, you devote more time to chess.
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and there was exams.
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i was at boys' school, but i'm a sort of 14, 15.
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i wasn't watching quite as much. and then as i went to college, even less so, and let's face it in the end. in the eighties, it became a bit like a pantomime.
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i was just happy that there were seven-year-olds, like my earliest seven-year-old, who could be similarly enthused by this program.
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so i watched and i enjoyed it and my sister works in theater.
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so my sister invited me to the press night and also...
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does this mean anything, david?
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...who played doctor who, i think he was near the end of his tenure at that point, was going to be there.
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i was going to be in the same room and i would get to hang out with him all night.
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so i went along to see the play.
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this could be the tragic bit. it gets worse. by that stage-
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i think i'm about 47 or 48, much younger than the person you see here.
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and yet, i still really want to see david tennant. isn't that really sad?
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i know i'm not quite as devoted as that seven-year-old, but it's just something inside me.
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...talking about light fittings with my sister. god is this-
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so she ushers them down towards the sort of vip drinks thing that i'm at.
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i'm there with my friend ben and we've had a few drinks. i just say to ben, "i just need to go to the loo."
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all the names hadn't arrived by that stage. and ben just grabs me before going to the loo. and he says-
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"you know who's just come in? david tennant's just come in and he's gone to the loo."
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now at this stage, i'm thinking, well i need to go to the loo.
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yeah, jesus. that is bright, for crying out loud.
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actually you've all disappeared, which probably is a bit of a tragedy as well.
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i'm actually going to tell you a little tale poetically, hopefully.
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that's a near miss of a tragedy.
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it came about years and years ago. and i wanted to write about the subject for a large number of years.
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and every time i tried to do it over the coming years-
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... it always sounded a bit crap, if i'm honest.
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until one day, my dad, who knew that i was struggling with how to approach this-
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... said to me, because he's a much smarter man than me-
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"i've call this phrase going around in my head, and i don't know-"
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"... maybe you could do something with it." and being the dutiful son that i am, i wrote it down in my little notebook.
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and the problem is that the phrase that he gave me relates to marine biology, specifically how pearls are formed naturally in oysters.
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now, i don't know if everybody's familiar with how this works.
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just in case we're not all kind of marine biology students.
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i know i wasn't. the way that a pearl is formed naturally in an oyster is that an irritant of some form gets inside the shell and the oyster can't get rid of it.
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it does mean, however, that people are wearing as decorative jewelry-
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... what is, to all intents and purposes, oyster snot.
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i'm sorry if that ruins it for anybody, but-
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now i've kind of done the little marine biology thing.
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i can tell you the phrase that my dad gave me, and it became the title. it is-
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it's the grit that makes the pearl.
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now, i should tell you this before we start. this is a topic very close to my heart.
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it is a tale of past events and, in turn, what they have meant to me in terms of who i am now.
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the words i'm speaking will hopefully show how the title of the poem is ultimately true.
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so now i'm going to begin the story for you.
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throughout my schooling i was always considered tall.
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i did well in my lessons. oh, by no means all, and i would never suggest that.
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but the combination of my height, that when starting primary school-
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... i could already read and write, and that i never really ever put up much of a fight in my defense, meant that i became someone to tease.
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the kids could get a reaction from me with apparent ease. and because-
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... i always want you to please, i kept it inside.
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i kept it to myself. and though i didn't know it at the time-
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... i let it affect my mental health. despite knowing, in my heart-
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... that there were a wealth of options available for me to take.
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i made a mistake that many of us still continue to make.
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i didn't reach out when i should have done.
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i let the kids carry on with their fun, thinking that when i changed school-
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... taunts and punches that came my way on all breaks and lunches, and constant demoralizing, painful [inaudible 00:03:22].
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... to this brand new school with this very visual anti-bullying rule that finally everything would be cool.
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but i came to quickly realize that school policy was meant for parents' eyes, and was not in effect for someone of my size.
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so when the bullying started i went to the teacher.
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i begged and i pleaded. i tried to beseech her to make use of the school's-
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but what i was told, what the teacher chose to say, was that help was not going to come my way.
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that i would have to suffer day after day, week after week, with no end in sight.
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that at the end of the tunnel, there was no light. so-
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yeah. i kind of gave up the fight.
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now that's a terrible thing. 11 years old, feeling like you've been left out in the cold. any trust you had-
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... put on hold. not knowing on who you could rely, when what you were told was so obviously a lie.
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it got to the stage-
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now, i'm not proud that this is the case.
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but frankly, i need to give you at least a taste of what was going on at the time, that for a while-
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... i had lost my mind and had no idea as to how to find a way out of the hell that i found myself in.
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i genuinely thought, that through suicide-
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... i could win back some points from those who had been my tormentors throughout each school year.
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that maybe i could make them shed just one tear in payment for all of those shed in the depths of my fear.
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i got a second chance and more time to think, where i came to understand i could be a strong link.
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